My Baby

Sooo today was amazing, My fiancee called me to wake me up this morning, I dont think she intended to wake me up. This is a rare thing these days cos shes spending the summer at Baru Sahib in India. I miss her so much, shes become more and more of my connection to God. I think with Wahegurus blessing she plans to take amrit next week... how amazing is that? Dhan Guru Nanak
Over the year or so that Ive known her she has blossomed from some lows to being a saintly Khalsa, daughter princess of Guru Gobind Singh Ji Maharaj. Waheguru.
Her path was much like mine, I was in the lows of desparity, attatched to falsehood and maya and then Guru Blessed me, took me in, let me read the Bani, woke me up from my slumber and showered me with blessings. Now I cant stop thinking of waheguru, in wonder...
Charanpreet, the other half of my soul is my God. I realize the Guru through her which takes me to God. I feel akaal purakh through her. Her strength, her wisdom, her nurturing, caring.. shes always a step ahead. She admires me for all my weakness and my strengths, she just wants to serve me on my path to fulfill my highest destiny to God. She supports me in all my crazy ideas and thoughts, and helps pick me up when I dont feel so Chardi Kala. She is the spirit of God in my life. I really worship her feet.
It took a long time to find this jewel, and man am I blessed. Ive said it so many times before, I couldnt have found a better person if I tried myself... only Waheguru could have done this. Somehow, at sometime I must have said to God to take care of it in some devotional felt ardaas and told him its not in my hands. Gave into his will...then I had to be patient. Very patient at times, it was tough. But you know what, God sent me an angel... If any of you get to meet her you'll be blessed too.

This picture was of me giving her the ring, I had suprised her after her birthday. I didnt make it to her birthday and she was sad about that, but the Guru was telling her not to worry, he had something better in store for her. Gods never says no, just says be patient I got something better lined up. I cant tell you how true that is...

My speech to her as I showed her the ring... It went a little like this, (Charanpreet, feel free to add/correct)...

"Charanpreet Kaur, I love you with all my heart with the Grace of the Guru. And if you want to take this journey with me to exploring and serving the 10 Gurus saroop, Guru Granth Sahib Ji Maharaj Ji please spend the rest of your life with me and serving"

She just smiled and nodded.. like in the picture. Oh Waheguru she was soo happy... I was sooo nervous and then it was all done. Oh wait, I forgot to give her the ring, her mom was like, put the ring on her finger, lol. Then I got up and sat on the other side of the room, lol.. but then I got up and sat down next to her.

Guru Nanak bought her the ring too... that was amazing too. I didnt spend much, the timing of a tax refund and the angels leading me to the best jeweller was all his Grace... they must really love Charanpreet, well I love her a lot, so I can only imagine how much Waheguru and his servants love her.
Thank you waheguru...you've shown me again and again that its all in your hands

Jo tudh bhaavai so-ee changa ik Naanak kee ardaasay.
That which pleases Your Will is good; this alone is Nanak's prayer.

Dhan Guru Nanak...

Praying and Ice Cream

Waheguru Jio..

I spoke to Jack today after work for a moment, said thanks for the soup. And I told him I wasnt sure about the veggie burger I had for lunch cos it was a little tooo good... i know it wasnt meat but it might have been cooked on the same grill without being cleaned. And he said its okay, you do your best, which was cool.. I know in my heart somethings are not so true, and I wanna be more careful of what i put into my body.
THen he asked what I had in my hand, and I told him its a gotka and I helped him to say Sukhmani Sahib, he totally butchered it at first. I explained that it was the Prayer of Peace found in the Guru Granth Sahib, our living Guru.
Keep in mind these people are totally ignorant to Sikhs, Ill explain more about where I work later and the culture there.
So then... he pulls out of his top pocket a small pocket size bible! Dhan Waheguru. That made me smile. No wonder he sees something in me that he respects.

Now this can be gross or funny, or both. He said he does read from it, its not just something to carry around, but he reads it while he's in the bathroom. That made me smile, cos Jack is a big man, and he knows alot, i mean alot about food. People are always asking him what hes having for lunch. I think he eats at least 2 lunches a day, usually more. Thats how come he gave me a portabello mushroom soup. I smiled to myself that he reads in the bathroom, cos I feel like Waheguru is giving him more and more to eat all the time so he can spend more and more time reading from the bible... Waheguru works in mysterious ways guys...

As for me, I still eat lots of chocolate, somehow Guru Ji doesnt mind just yet... he keeps leading me to it. In most ways he's just making me happy giving me all things I desire, I love you Guru Ji

Funny thing happened the other night, I was on the roof of my building watching the sun set and I was just talking out loud, to myself, to Waheguru through the Gurus grace... and at the end of it I was like, you "know what Waheguru, is it okay if I have some ice cream, give me a sign and let me know if its okay" then i looked around and thought, how is this gonna happen....theres not much that can happen up here... 2 seconds later... i hear the ice cream truck coming closer... Dhan Guru Nanak

I was like, thanks Waheguru, love you... Gotta run get some ice cream. I love ice cream more every day for some reason, it just gets tastier and tastier

You know when something gets better and better all the time your on the right track, and thats an important sign for me... Im expecting a lot of changes in the future and I cant wait to share them with you all. you all being the 5 guys that read this...lol . laugh as you may, but thats the spirit of Guru Gobind Singh Ji

And im gonna get a camera soon so I can put up pictures and stuff...

Lots more to come, Im kinda holding back a little to leave some good stuff to come...

God does that and it annoys us sometimes, but it excites me, I know that Waheguru has amazing blessings to unfold for us in the future, so enjoy where you are now... you wont be there for long...
dont worry about the future, the Guru has got it, stop and smell the sweet roses, tell them how much you love them

Seriously guys...I hear the ice cream truck... I love you all with every beat of my heart, and I wish to someday wash your feet and thank the Guru for humbling me

See how ice cream can make you so chardi kala? Dhan Guru Nanak

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

I am a Sikh of The Guru

Waheguru jio...

today was a special day, just like yesterday. i was really blessed today at work...

i was going into a break and someone was letting me out (filling in for my spot), and as i was doing so, this older colleague was swearing out loud, you son of a ba$t@3D he said out loud. as he turned and saw me with a slight cringe look on my face. then he stopped and then said, you know what, no, im sorry...i dont mean that.

then he goes to me, you know what manny you make me better. i just feel so... he was exlpaining with his hands. i knew what he was talking about... my appearance, my aura, my radiance, all of these given by the Guru is what he feels. It makes him see God and he stops going into his tantrum.
This is why Guru Gobind Singh Ji Maharaj created a distinct Khalsa. Then Jack, thats his name, held on to my Kara and said I need one of these to remind me...
He was talking about his belonging to God.
So he has an awesome connection with God, as do we all... and he acknowledges it when he can. But like us all, we lose ourselfs in worldly attatchement and forget that this is all his play. we lose connection with the inner light of our souls, where waheguru resides and we operate through the layers that we want to show the world. that light gets soo buried and it seems dim at times, but the guruwards know how bright it is.
this guy is beautiful and when i came back from break he had a portobella mushroom soup waiting for me.
i was just amazed because Guru Gobind Singh had spoken to him without even saying a word. He heard him loud and clear. I was just at the right spot, representing the Khalsa, pure ones of Guru Gobind Singh and then Jack found his own light.

Dhan Siri Guru Gobind Singh Ji Maharaj Ji Waheguru Ji

waheguru naam jaahaj hai

im missing you waheguru... i hope i dont mess this chance up to be back with you for good waheguru.

ok so my last post was like months ago... my dear friend prabhu singh http://prabhukhalsa.blogspot.com/ has sort of indirectly inspired me to read blogs of people especially gursikhs. now... somehow waheguru has pulled me back to this blog and i feel the desire to write here...

right now in my life i dont know whats going on, but im experiencing a deep and conscious connection to akaal purakh, his angels, his saints, his love. this has been going on since summer solstice.

i have so many things to share, i dont know where to start... all i want to do is serve my guru, all i want to do is serve you waheguru, im soo far behind waheguru. please save this paapi and take me under your wing waheguru.

i want to share so many things with you waheguru, what im seeing and doing, hoping to help someone somewhere. i dont care that some egos might get hurt and want to react and hurt me with their words or even more. waheguru i love you and i know you are all and everywhere. you only and only you will be my support through the gurus grace. dhan Siri Guru Granth Sahib Ji. What worries do I have now Waheguru? They are all yours, I enjoy this jeevan with the Grace of the Guru and I shall serve.

The theme of my life right now, today is spirituality. I have amazing things going on that through his grace I will share... Only his grace...

Till then all beings of light, I love you all... I wish to serve you all, I wish to touch the ground you walked on...Only by his grace will I be fulfilled...

Dhan Guru Nanak